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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:13

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Comes on , in middle age.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I’m 17 and looking for a girl. What do I do?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Put me off passion for life!!

What is the sum of X+XX+XXX+XXXX?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She found it foreign!.

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She married twice! .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So, i spoilt her more .

It was going to be , some day.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I found out I have cancer—I have not told my family. We can’t afford the treatment anyway. Should I just say nothing and let nature take its course?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I don,t even have a pension.

What did someone say to you that instantly made you realize their life was in danger?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Why do so many autistic adults deal with self-hatred?

(And it was in our own minds.)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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He resisted the act ,that day.

But, we were locked up after school.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

What is the worst thing your sibling has done?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

What is the best time for conception?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was scared of men, in general

Why do men like to suck another man’s dick?

I have no regrets .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But it wasn’t much.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I said to her

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She was in good health!

I will be 64.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She wouldn,t have been !

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He knew the spot.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I write beautiful poetry .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

This is soul school!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was seconnd youngest,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

When she asked me how she looked .

One cannot live in the past .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im dying but, im not bitter.

We were not on the streets..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Ive learnt so much.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was very sick at this time too.

I waited trembling.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My life is so biszare .

I was 9 years of age.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

All the time i was locked up.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

What did i know ?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Would this be the day?

She loved him until the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i lived it daily.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im still living with it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

My family never makes their pension either.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

So whats the point in blame.

Who then, do I blame.?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We all went to grammer schools

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i do to all so called friends.?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)